melancholy
The Guy Who Gave Me Warmth Is The Guy Who Made Me Cold
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Your beloved one, the person who made you feel on top of the world, can also make you feel like you’re living underground in the darkness.When the person you used to talk to everyday till 4am turns into the person who gives you the ‘I’m busy’ excuse and simple not talk to you for weeks, months, or even, 3 years? When you always end up trying to save the relationship but the person you love decides to give up, or maybe he found someone else that wouldn’t make him ‘busy’.
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Once you believed every word, every DAMN word, you’ll end up so DAMN hurt. Maybe I wasn’t everything to him, but had always been. And I’ve counted how many years since we haven’t talked, and what truly hurts, is he never said he was ever leaving without any alert. Maybe he wanted it to be a surprise, since I did told him I like surprises. But this was a kind of surprise that brings you misery and sadness, maybe self hate too.
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3 years, and he still haven’t even bothered to tell me that we should break up, but no, he already gave me the answer but in a way that keeps me wonder for 3 fucking years about why he had done this to me, And how could be someone that cruel?
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But I don’t blame him, maybe I should blame myself, for trusting and loving someone too much. Maybe he took all my good emotions and feelings with him, and only left me with an empty heart, and a mind that keeps thinking about him all night before I sleep. Maybe he taught me a lesson, a lesson that made me not to love anyone anymore. Maybe it taught me that, once you’ve fallen for someone, you’ll end up falling forever. Yes, he left me completely emotionless and empty for years, and yes, sometimes I like that feeling, the feeling of complete numbness. You left me without any reasons, but you were all my reasons, and maybe you were lost in my eyes, but now, I’m the one who’s lost.
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