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The Power Of Writing: Trust Your Gut, Express Yourself Without Limitations, Do It All With Love
This morning I woke up with a sudden urge to write
As if my fingers automatically found their voice outside my body
And began to type letters
To my twenty two year old self who still can’t wait
to meet the boy of her dreams
in a random cafe with bad music and expensive drinks
To the fiancée who waits on a terminal without a suitcase
To the other woman
To my always unimpressed mother
And my always addicted to pain
friends.
To the girl everyone wants to date
but no one asks out
Because a picture says more than 1000 words
and less than a million chances of heartbreak.
To the stranger everyone regards as a snob because she doesn’t feel like talking when she has nothing to say
To the woman who showed up for a sleazy photo shoot and filled the room with her fragrance
like a song by Kate Bush slowly fills up the room and turns the walls into velvet
And the falling dust into snow
To the French man who flirted with me in line at the cashier’s for fifteen minutes
he carried flowers, wine, bread, and his hopes in his shopping basket
To the lovers who kissed on the train platform at Pernety in December 2014
And became only lovers left alike
In my first black and white Polaroid picture
To the priest who told me to go home and break-up with my boyfriend when I was looking for ways out of this life
To the woman who sold her last belongings on the street
In the snow
When I was thirteen
And punched my heart because she was the bravest person to face pride better than the cold
To the old lady with red lipstick on her teeth in a high street fashion store who grabbed my arm and said
She will rather have new boots instead of new prescription drugs for her brain
To the scientist who fucked my heart
And never touched my thigh
To my father’s sister
Who fell in love at 46
And writes me on Facebook
To the house painter who told me one summer to go out, watch TV and dance
Because this house is too empty and tall to have my youth sewn into tapestry
And old sofas.
To the girl at work who came in with her new born baby and made me cry
Because I am a woman who wants to let live
As much as most women.
To the taxi driver who spoke my language in a different country
And took me home safe
Because what else is there that we seek
Other than safety in strangers
To the lives I wish I led
But never did
Because I’m still learning to let go
Of everything and everyone I set my high hopes on.
Like spiders.
To my Grandpa
Who was a charmer
I wish you took me to prom
And wrote me letters like the one F. Scott Fitzgerald wrote his 11 year old daughter.
To fast absorbing magnesium stearate in 1600 mg,
We may all be writers here
But you are the spark we end up writing for,
The gap we fill in the world with ourselves
Ultimately
The reader.
—
“A Poem To All Poets”, Berlin, 2015, dedicated to the one person who believed most in my writing.
Ioana Cristina Casapu is the Managing Director of Art Parasites Magazine. She likes Brian Eno, airports and never says no to a good old Gin&Tonic.
Read all her stories and poetry here.
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